“The way you look should be a sin, you my sensation.”
It’s not a part time thing or a when
Your free and not all caught up thing it’s a full time thing a here now
And forever thing. Unless you fuck it all up and then this whole thing becomes absolutely nothing.
Wish I was on a beach. A warm, sunny beach with clear water and a piña colada not thinking about anything or anyone. The beach always does the trick, I swear she’s my first love.
I think I fell in love with such an amazing person. So many flaws yet so perfect in my eyes. The fact that we fight and argue and then laugh and make up not too long after makes me believe in us, the way that we miss each other even though i lived on the 5th floor and you live on the 4th showed me that a lifetime might not be enough with you. I need more then that.I constantly complain about the small things you don’t do but I mean I tend to be a diva here and there, I know you know how that can be at times. But regardless through it all I love you and you love me. Even though we wont go long without seeing each other you’ll miss me and i’ll miss you. Kind of like I miss you now. You are so loving, so sweet and considerate. I love how handsome you are and the way your cheeks look like a chipmunks. I love the way we love.
I think it is more the evident that I am not in any way shape or form pleased with Pace University or New York City. I am actually somewhat feeling the city but I don’t think I can survive here at this whack ass school. People lack personality here and I just don’t like the changes that have occurred at all. Nothing has changed for the better whatsoever. I thought it would be cool to live on my own and be able to do as I wish without anyone on my back about anything but like fuck all of that. It isn’t even worth it. I’d much rather be at some school in Boston closer to the things I know and the people I love. Being here has changed countless relationships and i’m not really feeling it at all. I guess complaining about all of the bullshit isn’t really going to change anything though it’snjust going to piss me off even more. I just have to think about it this way. Get good grades, graduate and get a bomb job and the rest is going to fall into place in time. No matter who I don’t talk to or what relationship no longer exists in the future i’ll have my family and diploma. That is all I could ever ask for. I am done stressing how people act towards me or expecting things from people and all of that. I am going to focus less on people and more about me and my success. Hollaaa backkkkk.
